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Name: Alice
Country: United States
State: Colorado
Gender: Female
Interests: I am definatly a BIG rugby feind, it is the love of my life, although i do enjoy playing the piano and hanging out with friends, oh yes, and my music.....without music i am DEAD....
Expertise: Being a bitch. I'd like to also say rugby is an expertise of mine....but that would be a lie....
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  Sk8rchic582
Member Since:
5/3/2004
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| i know that i never up date this shit, but i just want to say i could give a shit about the drama. I no longer think what people say to me, and if they insult me or upset me i am easily done with them, becuase i get to get the fuck out of here in a couple months and do something with my life. P.S. Xach, not all my friends are girls, and those with penises were very willing to settle this without using words (i think you get the gist). Thats not a threat either. for those of you out there, you know who you are, i love you all dearly, and would do anything for you, including moving a dead body! i am after all a number 8. | | |
| you all went to school today! and u wanna know what i did? well....i went wakeboarding and read alot, layed around, took a nap....and am now preparing myself a lobster dinner. i hope school was fun. tee hee! ill be back in 1.5 days.....and i cant wait to see all you lovely ladies (and i guess the boys) on monday! | | |
| So here i am in RI...updating this shit for the first time in what? 8 months. i like 2 of the comments on my last update.....for all of you who want to see what real maturity is u should read them, cuz they are creme de la creme. So life is ok, im enrolled in my cu class and i have an awesome bf, who ive been with for almost a year. Ive been improving at wakeboarding out here. i miss everyone back home tho. im kinda worried about my senior year. i dont know how im gonna fare friend-wise and i have to majorly fix my schedual. becuase it is le fucked up and i also have to get all A's.....or no boston college...or any other cool schools for alice. oh well enough whining. Im excited to share a locker with val (we should cover the inside w/ awesome comic book art....anyway. i will see you all monday....wish me luck with my little bit of college. | | |
| sigh.....i dont know anymore....nothing....like the one thing that is goin right in my life is now going awry...like karen is always telling me that none of this is my fault and its all lawrence....but like i guess im the motivation for his supposed douchyness....so i feel responsible....sigh...i dont know. and dana is really mad at the both of us right now....which makes me really sad, cuz ive never seen her mad....let alone mad at me....things feel so fucked up....i love my new friends...and i dont want to lose them over this....and i also miss my old friends a ton.......sigh i dont know....today is alice's emo day | | |
| its been a while, but i wanted to write something. lola...i compleatly agree with you on everything....EVER! well maybe not that far but the drugs....SOO sick of them. and whoever sais this was the best time of year SHOULD be taken out and shot. so today everything that was right officially fell apart. Lawrence got back last night. i was so excited, i spent like 2 hours making myself pretty just wanting him to see me and go "god look what ive missed...." (something i never did with tad....i never even missed that boy when we were away from eachother). So i met lawrence over at julians and we hung out there and all i really wanted to do was go somewhere and be alone with him and cuddle. but no...we went over to carly's and met up with tons of kids and then....suprise of suprises....they all wanted to get stoned....so we all went back to danas house, and then all pilled in lawrence's car....and they all smoked....even emily davis...the good choir girl... while i just sat there on lawrences lap....wanting to be alone with him....and watched them all get stoned. once i leaned to kiss lawrence...and his forced smoke into my mouth....and i started coughing and i was like "im not getting stoned....that was gross.....dont do that" and then when he dropped me off i told him i wanted to go to a movie with him the next day (today) and he said sure... so this morning i call him and he tells me "no i have to work around the house...and then go help sean with a cabinet....ive promised him for so long id help...and blah blah" and all i could think of was "well you promised me youd come to this movie with me"....so i got in the shower....and just started sobbing. i hate myself for being hurt about all this, like it seems really lame when i write it all out....but i feel like all he ever wants is sex. he seems to always rather get stoned then hangout with me. the night before he came home i had all these dreams that he came home and was like "we cant hang out cuz im gonna go get stoned.". ironic huh? i just feel like it hit me all of a sudden...all of it...i miss my old friends more then ever.....all i wanna do right now is go hang out with lola....i feel so selfish for wanting him to always spend time with me and i know he wanted to see his friends last night but i donno....i just feel like i need to start protecting myself again from getting hurt. and i dont want to have to do that....i feel like im starting to fall out of love with him....and it hasnt even been a month yet...gah...i have to go do last minute christmas shopping with my dad....so whoever reads this the soonest should call me and rescue me from my misery....call my cell (303 435 5794) cuz my house phone is disconnected because my mom cant handle paying the phone bill.... | | |
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